Upset.

I haven't written on my other blog since March. I can't figure out why. Maybe because Summer always causes me to lose intellect. Ha. Or I think it's because there's a lot going through my mind these days, and I can't find the right time [or words] to put it on paper. Or blog. Maybe I should go to bookstores and just read. All I know is that I've been lacking Inspiration. Where'd you go? I miss you so.

I feel really stupid these days with everyone talking about their 5s and 4s from their AP exams on Facebook. I'm really upset I didn't pass the English Literature exam.. I thought I did well.. My AP Chemistry and AP Gov scores were no surprise to me, though I still feel bad about them. My confidence is at an all-time low right now. And after the phone call I got yesterday about drunk girlfriends and losing trust in someone.. I am deeply afraid of the future. And the fact that things aren't going my way with you this summer, is already a bad sign. Why do I keep getting disappointed? I don't know what to do with myself these days.. especially since you don't want to do anything with me. Don't tell me about being lonely when I make my time so available for you and you just don't want it. If this is how you want it to be, then so be it.