you were right about the swelling, thats for sure. its swelling from the deep pits of my stomach and into my throat.. i cant breathe. and thats not figurative. and i think my heart is racing three hundred beats per second, and i dont think thats even humanely possible. i hate this feeling. oh so fucking much. "it just swells up inside." you said the right words EXACTLY. it's funny how after a conversation of giving somebody advice, an hour later, i have to repeat that advice all over again, except this time to myself.. damn. i wish i had saved our conversation, that way i could read my own words of wisdom right now.