ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE.

THE TROUBLE WITH BEING AN ANGEL CHILD ALL YOUR FCKING LIFE IS THAT ONCE YOU DO SOMETHING THE SLIGHTEST BIT DIFFERENT, ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU'RE A DEVIL CHILD. THE TROUBLE WITH FOLLOWING EVERY WORD YOUR PARENTS EVER SAID IS THAT ONCE YOU START WANTING TO DO THINGS YOUR OWN WAY, ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. THE TROUBLE WITH BEING RESPECTFUL AND OBEDIENT YOUR WHOLE FCKING LIFE IS THAT ONCE YOU MAKE THE SLIGHTEST SLIP, ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU'RE A CHEAP WHORE THAT DOESN'T THINK. ALL OF A SUDDEN EIGHTEEN FCKING YEARS OF BEING THE PERFECT DAUGHTER DOESN'T EVEN MATTER BECAUSE ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU'RE THINKING FOR YOURSELF. THE TROUBLE WITH ALWAYS LISTENING TO WHATEVER YOUR PARENTS WANTED,IS THAT ONCE YOU START DIPPING YOUR FINGERS IN FREEDOM AND INDEPENDENCE THEY'LL GRAB YOUR HANDS AND CUT OFF YOUR FINGERS. AS A CHILD, AS A TEENAGER, I HAD ALWAYS DEALT WITH GOING HOME EARLY AS A PARTY IS BARELY JUST GETTING STARTED.. AND MISSING OUT ON ALL SLEEPOVERS IN MY LIFE.. AND HAVING TO TELL MY FRIENDS "SORRY I CANT..MY PARENTS ARE KINDA..YOU KNOW.." FOR JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING.. IT'S NO WONDER, REALLY, WHY I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE ONE LEFT OUT IN MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHER PEOPLE. I WAS ALWAYS CHAINED TO MY HOME. BUT DID I EVER COMPLAIN? NO. DID I EVER OBJECT? NO. I LISTENED AND FOLLOWED LIKE A GOOD GIRL SHOULD..HOPING ONE DAY THE TIDES WOULD TURN AND THEY WOULD REALIZE HOW MUCH I STROVE TO BE A PERFECT CHILD. AND MAYBE THAT'S WHERE I WENT WRONG IN LIFE. MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE JUST BEEN A REBELLIOUS CHILD TO BEGIN WITH. MAYBE IT WOULDN'T BE LIKE THIS. I HATE BEING THE OLDEST AND BEING A GIRL. FCKING RUINS MY LIFE. WHENEVER I MAKE THE SLIGHTEST MISTAKE, ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. BUT MY BROTHER, OH NO. "GEE, HE TALKS BACK ALL THE TIME, SO I GUESS WE CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE BUT KEEP LETTING HIM DO IT." BUT WHEN I SAY OR DO SOMETHING WRONG, ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. AND THIS TIME, I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG. I JUST DID SOMETHING DIFFERENT. SHARP, PAINFUL WORDS COME FLYING AT ME. SURE, I CRY. BUT THIS TIME, IT'S NOT BECAUSE I FEEL SAD OR REMORSEFUL. NO. THIS TIME, IT'S FROM ANGER. IT TOOK ALL MY STRENGTH TO PREVENT MYSELF FROM YELLING BACK. I CALMLY TRY TO EXPRESS MYSELF AND I STILL GET PAINFUL WORDS THROWN AT ME. FUCK THIS. MY DAD FINALLY DROPPED THE LINE. THE "FOR AS LONG AS YOU'RE LIVING UNDER MY ROOF, YOU LIVE UNDER MY RULES. IF YOU DON'T LIKE THEM, LEAVE THIS HOUSE" LINE. I DON'T KNOW WHEN THAT'LL BE POSSIBLE FOR ME..BUT AT LEAST I HAVE STRONG MOTIVATION TO EARN MONEY. I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE.