moments

i miss the moments that used to take my breath away. those moments that made me feel warm and fuzzy inside, despite the evidence of my ice cold skin. it used to get me through the school day.. but lately my motivation to get through my classes isnt so.. present. my reason to come to school doesnt seem to be reason these days. and lately the days have just dragged on.. lately ive been feeling like im just passing time.. on the contrary, it feels fast too. which scares me, a little. it's the beginning of april already, which means there's about two months left until.. until... i dont even know. and it dampens my mood a little. cuz i feel like each day hasnt maximized to its fullest, and the only thing i do know is that time is running out. but theres only so much i can do on my own..

i want to feel. i want to be. but i dont want to do it alone.
why am i the only one that feels this way