Saturday, July 11, 2009

A Promise in the Dark

"Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it. It’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings. The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it. This can’t work any more than you believe it. Goodbye may come as a shock. Even though I love you a lot. I’ve given every breath I’ve got. Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe. And how many times I gave my heart? To how many times we fell apart? And it equals a promise in the dark. So don’t promise me. And how many times I gave you me? Divided by so many memories. And it equals a promise in the dark. So don’t promise me. I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is. Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it? All these promises are probably how you deal with it. I’m tired of hearing you say you're innocent. Don’t think I forgot, because I really didn’t. Who cares if you’re lying or not? I’ve given every breath I’ve got. Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe. We all make mistakes. Sometimes we do desperate things. What does it prove? NOTHING. Then what took you so long? Cuz I keep, keep hanging on."

It's time to let go of all the people I knew who hurt me. It's time to let go of the times that made me sad. It's time to let go of all the people who have made me feel forgotten. It's time to let go of such a tight grip on something that's indifferent. It's time to let go of the people who make me feel like I'm a failure with their condescending tone and painful words. It's time to let go of someone who doesn't love the person that I am.

I've given up on holding on to you.. and you.. and you. If you don't care then why the hell am I trying so hard? I don't care what you say, I deserve better than that. There's a countless number of strangers in my future who are merely friends waiting to be met. I'm not going to waste anymore time with you, when all you do is make me feel alone. And unless you can change and show me what I deserve, I'm already gone.

"I didn't know love could hurt more than hatred or anger. combined." -- tm

1 comment:

Diana said...

people who don't realize how great and wonderful of a friend you are shouldn't be allowed to have you in their lives. if they don't know or care about your true kindness then you shouldn't waste it on them.

you deserve better :)