Tuesday, September 1, 2009


All I really needed what a new environment I think. New faces, new places. I notice I get really dramatic when I'm unhappy. I also notice that when I AM happy, see myself as a completely different person.. COMPLETELY different. It's really quite strange..

But anyway, I'm back on here sooner than I expected to be. And that is such a good thing. I'm healing a lot faster than I expected to be. I'm dealing with this change, easier than I expected I would. Yesterday was PERFECT. I ♥ college. I enjoyed walking around a busy campus, not knowing every single face that passed me by. Although, I must admit, the thing I missed about Oxford was always having someone around to talk to. But it's okay, I'll get used to it, I think. And eventually I'll make new friends too. I absolutely love the fact that there are two Starbucks within vision distance of each other. I love that I can sit down anywhere on campus, in a shady spot and just relax. Yesterday I was different. And I speak as a person who watches from the outside, because I always do that. Honestly, sometimes I really feel like I have multiple people in my body. Not in a schizophrenic or bipolar-ic (?) way, I don't think. Though, I know in the past I used to think I was..haha. Anyway, sorry, I'm getting so off-topic. As I was saying; yesterday I was different. It was easy for me to just introduce myself to the person sitting next to me. I don't know. I've never been able to do that before, really. There's just something about being in a new place that gave me that self-confidence that wasn't in me before. I felt.. amazing. And I really hope that this hype I have going for college isn't just going to die out by next week. Haha. The only negatives of yesterday are as follows. I realized I'm probably going to end up spending A LOT of money buying food & Starbucks on campus. I wish I had a macbook, or a smaller laptop I can carry around :( I also realized that I'm going to lose a lot of water bottles every day..I keep forgetting about them when I place them down somewhere. Another thing I realized is what Athena said about being really out of shape.. I mean, I was freakin' out of breath walking up five flights of stairs. Ridiculous me. Yesterday was perfect, and today was short [that's another story]. BUT, I can already tell I'm going to love my intro to acting class! My teacher is awesome! Hilarious and active. And people in my class aren't that shy either. Oh and my professor said we go as a class to watch shows and stuff. I AM EXCITED. College pretty much rocks so far, even though it's only been two days. I hope this lasts. I really do. 'Cuz my mind, body, heart, and soul need it!

P.S. By the way. The Summer Intensive 6 Showcase last weekend was the most amazing experience ever. Here's the video of my group, Seniors Advanced 2b. I'm the one in the black boots [: Being in every piece was definitely tiring, but definitely worth it! I'm glad I decided to audition for each piece.. 'cuz for one of the pieces I wasn't going to audition for, I ended up being in Top Ten :O! Teehee. Although the night didn't end as well as I hoped, I will never forget performing this set. And that day, I made a lot of friends too [: It helps when I have a car and I'm able to offer to drive people down the street to get some food.. hahahah. Hey, whatever works right? [;

1 comment:

philophiliac said...

You totally are bipolar, fyi. But in the good way.

That self-confidence boost is wicked. It's going to take me a few more days, but I think I'm feeling it too.

p.s. Intro to Acting ?? I'm jealous !! (Now I imagine you as an actress.)